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Poems!

Poems, Poems, Poems!!!!
The Reason I love You

I love you because you make me happy
I love you because you make me feel safe and secure
I love your smile
I love the way you say my name
I love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love me
And how you laugh at me when I do something stupid when other would put me down.
I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worry
About what you think of me, because I know you love me for who I am.
No matter what my faults may be.
I love them way you wrap your arms around me and hold me really tight, like there is no tomorrow.
I love your laugh
I love hearing your voice
And hearing you tell me your stories, you could tell them to me a thousand times,
and I will never get tired of them because they are a part of you.

But the main reason I love you is because

You are You!

These are all mine


Every night I go to sleep,
thinking of you and me.
Every morning I wake up,
knowing it's only you I see.
Whenever I'm with you,
all I see is you.
Everything else is a blur.
You're my life and everything more.
I don't know what I'd do with you!

-Suzanne
11.29.02

You intrigue me with ever move,
til I'm breathless, I'm helpless.
You have my heart when your hand's in mine.
You have my heart when my lips touch yours.
I look in your eyes, they make everything right.
When you smile, I melt inside.
It's starting to begin.
I love you so much it must be a sin.

-Suzanne
11.30.02


*Parentals*

I have pretty underware,
and it's not fair.
They'll never be seen.
You treat me like a little girl.
You tie me down.
I'm big and I'm strong,
I know what I'm doing.
Nothing's going to happen,
all I need is some fun.
You think I love you,
It's on and off.
Sometimes I wish you'd die.
Let me be me,
Me Without you

-Suzanne
01.20.03


*I Miss You*
It's been so long it seems
so long since I've heard your voice
so long since I've seen that smile of yours
All I want these days
is a little time with you
I hate being so selfish
but how else can I be
when I Miss you

-Suzanne
05.13.03


Haikus
My Forever love
My deepest, darkest secrets
You're the one I tell

-Suzanne
05.30.03

Here I am alone
No one calls, no one comes
All alone I wait

-Suzanne
05.30.03

It's quiet and dark
in my own little corner
I cry to myself

-Suzanne
05.30.03

It's confusing me
It's the way you act towards me
and my lonliness

-Suzanne
05.30.03

The sun is shining
But my life feels oh so cold
I'll never be warm

-Suzanne
05.30.03

The feeling of warmth
I feel it inside of me
All because of you

-Suzanne
06.02.03

My tears have fallen
Now there's a smile of my face
You brought both of these

-Suzanne
06.02.03


Paradise is lost.
Everything seems to be wrong.
When will you come back?

-Suzanne
07.03.03

I'm only fourteen
But I know what I mean
when I say I want to explore
this may seem crazy
since I'm crying on the floor
I'll never be taken serious
all this makes me belious
Why won't you love me
You must be an idiot
I don't understand how you can't see!?
I'm growing up now right before your eye
Look at me closely just in case I die
I hope that I'll be missed
by all those who loved me dearly
If you weren't when of them I won't be pissed
-Suzanne
7.19.03

You made me smile
I became unbroke
All those wonderful feelings
They're back inside my heart
You make me laugh
So don't make me cry
I don't want to know that feeling again
The painful feeling of nothing at all

-Suzanne
07.22.03

Hey boy get over here,
Wipe away this lonely tear.
You lied to me
and now you'll see
this scarlet blood that flows within,
flowing right out of my skin.
The darkest shades of red
coming from my head.
You cried my name
because you're to blame.
Your voice was in my head
speaking to me until I was dead.
-Suzanne
08.20.03


You will never know how I feel because you never ask. Ask away and maybe this will work. I feel put away, second best. Just love me the way I love you.
Just do it even if it isn't true.

-Suzanne
08.22.03

You confuse me so, I don't know what you're thinking, I do something right, you think that I'm stupid. Your love is hate and my hate is love. Why can't things just be normal? Why can't these things just be understood

-Suzanne
08.22.03

Images and thoughts,
cause my heart breaking
All these things,
It's a little more than what I'm making.
You were so bold
about all those words.
I had been told
something that was only a lie.
You tell me things I love to hear,
Those words have made me cry.
-Suzanne
09.15.03


Take a chance on me just one more time
I know I was wrong before
just try me again.
I know I want you and you know it too
C'mon honey just ask me again.
This is just torture waiting for this question
What if that moment never comes?
What if I threw it all away
You made me so happy just to see you look my way
and wink at me so easily
you know it makes me want you so much more
-Suzanne
10.01.03


I'm so sick
so sick and tired of waiting
but there's nothing else
nothing else I know
nothing is right
but its ever gong to change
I am miserable
and no one wants to change
a thought of happiness runs through my mind
and is quickly chased away.
Negativity consumes all good.

-Suzanne ayrie
04.22.04


There's only a few things I want these days
There's so many things that I could have but not what I want
I want to feel you next to me
     and make me by your side
I want to spend my days with you
     and you'd make them last for hours
I want your hands to touch me
     and you'd tease me in many ways
I want you to teach me everything you know
     and we'll know each other's knowledge
I want to hear your voice
     and you'll sing to me forever
I want you to know my flaws
     and hope you'll love me anyway
I want you to tell me your secrets
     and you'll trust me as I trust you
I want to hold your hands
     and our feelings will flow together
I want you near me always
     and I'll never be alone
I want you to learn to like me
     and I'll be there for you always
I want you to love me
     and I believe I'll love you too.

                    suzanne ayrie*
                    May 27, 2004 8:31 a.m.

Some Songs

Starting Here...

"More Than Life Itself" by Kelly Osbourne

You never said that you were perfect
but you always are to me
Loving you is always worth it
'Cause you see so much in me

And when I'm down you're there to lift me
You come around just when I need a friend

No one loves me like you do
Unconditional and true
You're the shoulder that I've always known
And the hand that says I'm not alone
More than myself
I love you more than life itself

Did you know that I get lonely
At the thought of you not being here
Can you see that you're the only
One that never disappears

And when I fear that you are the comfort
The one who steers me to the light

I love you, I love you, I love you
and I don't care if it sounds trite
I'll say it over and over

It makes me feel alive
You have me all my fire
By watching you live by what you believed
So many things you taught me
And even when you caught me
I always knew that you, you could still see
The best in me

No one loves me like you do
Unconditional and true
You're the should that I've always known
And the hand that says I'm not along
More than myself
I love you more than life itself.


"Keep On Loving You" By The DOnnas

You should've seen by the look in my eyes, baby
There was something missing
You should've known by the tone in my voice, maybe
But you didn't listen
You played dead
But you never bled
Instead you lay still in the grass
All coiled up and hissing

And though I know all about those girls
Still I don't remember
Cause it was us baby, way before then
And we're still together
And I meant ever word I said
WHen I said that I love you I meant
That I love you forever

And I'm gonna keep on loving you
Cause its the only thing I wanna do
I don't want to sleep
I just wanna keep on loving you

And I meant every word I said
When I said that I love you I meant
That I love you forever


"Too Much Of You"

What can I say
You got me Good
Swallowed me up
Spit me out
Got Me hooked

What can I do
But play the fool
and wait around for you to come
You never do

So I'll sit for days
I'maging the different ways

'Cause I love it in the morning
it's like a new day dawning every time baby
Too much of you is not enough

and I want it in the evening
you give alone new meaning I can't lie baby
too much of you is not enough

I catch my breath at it again
You swirl around in my head
I never win

You're everything
I didn't need
THe doctor says I'll forget
with two of these

all these wasted days
can't keep myself away from me


"Take It Off" by The Donnas

I'm on my second drink
But I've had a few before
I'm trying hard to think
And I think that I want you on the floor
(uh-huh yeah on the floor)

Go on and take it off
You gotta shake it off baby for me
C'mon and break me off
Cause I get what I want and I like what I see

Need your love 123
Stop staring at me A cup
Don't waste time just give it to me
C'mon baby just fell me up
(C'mon just give it up)
Forget the application
You're the right guy for the task
Let me take you on vacation
Just do it, you don't have to ask


"Love Me When I'm Gone" by Three Doors Down

There's another world inside of me that you may never see.
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide.
Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find.
Maybe it's too far away or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind.

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared but you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone
When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin.
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.

Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone.
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.

Everything I am and everything in me.
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be,
Ill never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone.
(Maybe I'm just blind)

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.

I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there.
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone.

"The Young Crazed Peeling" by the Distillers

Are you ready to be liberated
On this sad side city streets
Well the birds have been freed from their cages
I got freedom and my youth

My name is Brody I'm from Melbourne
Fitzroy Melbourne Fitzroy Melbourne
I grew up on Bell St. then on Bennett St.
My mom kicked out my dad for battery
Found a way she found a way out of spiritual penury
Working single mother in an urban struggle
Blames herself now cause I grew up troubled
It hit me i got everything i need

My one heart felt too much from the start
Ive seen people come and go
Living large and living low
You can build up your walls sitting on death row
Let the curtain fall on your murdered soul
You can wash it all down swallow your story
Get smacked off your head go down in drumroll glory
You wont solve it committing self inflicted crime
Go on pull the trigger this will be the last time

I speak of the truth the truth of the heart
Like a desperate thirst in a raging drought
Hey youth time flies by
Theres an everlasting battle for eternal life
I love a man from California
Hes the prettiest thing we got the same disorder
The way you feel is OK its never gonna change anyway

It hit me I got everyone i need

"Again I Go Unnoticed" By Dashboard Confessional

So quiet
another wasted night,
the television steals the conversation
exhale,
another wasted breath,
again it goes unnoticed.

Please tell me you're just feeling tired
cause if it's more than that I feel that I might break
out of touch, out of time.
Please send me anything but signals that are mixed
cause I can't read your rolling eyes
out of touch, are we out of time?

Close lipped
another goodnight kiss
is robbed of all it's passion,
your grip
another time, is slack
it leaves me feeling empty.

I'll wait until tomorrow
maybe you'll feel better then
maybe we'll be better then
so what's another day
when I can't bear these nights of thoughts
of going on without you
this mood of yours is temporary
it seems worth the wait
to see your smile again
out of the corner of your eye
won;t be the only way you'll look at me then.

"A Plain Morning" by Dashboard Confessional

It is yet to be determined,
but the air is thick,
& my hope is feeling worn.
I'm missing home,
& I'm glad you're not a part of this,
there are parts of me that will be missed.
And the phone is always dead to me,
so I can't tell you the temperature is dropping
& it feels like

it is colder than it ought to be in March
& I still have a day or two ahead of me
till I'll be heading home,
into your arms again.
And the people here are asking after you.
It doesn't make it easier.
It doeasn't make it easier to be away.

I'd like to hire a plane.
I'd see you in the morning,
when the day is fresh.
I'm coming home again.
It's warmer where you're waiting.
It feels more like July.
Ther's pillows in their cases
& one of those is mine.
And you wrote the words I love you,
& sprayed it with perfume.
It is better than the fire is
to heat this lonely room.
It is warmer where you're waiting
It feels more like July.

 

"Hey Mister" by Custom

Hey Mister I really like your daughter,
I'd like to eat her like ice cream
maybe dip her in chocolate

Hey Mister on your way to work
in your Volvo, suit, and tie
We'll, be crawling in your bed soon
messing around, maybe getting high

It's not what ya did,
It's not what ya didn't
God gave her a perfect body
and now I'm all up in it.

It's not she's a tramp.
It's not she's not pure.
She just likes getting her fuck on,
and its good one of that i'm sure

Hey Mister I really like your daughter.
When I'm horny like thirsty
She's a bottle of water.

Hey Mister how'd it get so bad
You raised her so well
and now she's calling me dad
in the back seat naked of a new Volkswagen
the perfect little gift for high school graduation.

It's not what ya did,
It's not what ya didn't
God gave her a perfect body
and now I'm all up in it.

It's not she's a tramp.
It's not she's not pure.
She just likes getting her fuck on,
and its good one of that i'm sure

Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana na,
ha hahaha ha ha haha

I eat all the food in your fridge
Call my friends around the world
Rack up your long distance too
Breakstands neutral drops
Wreck all your cars
Drink all the booze in your cheezy ass wet bar
Order stuff on your credit cards
Leave boogers in the skippy jar
Smoke your cigars
Answer the phone tell your boss you moved to mars
When you call in late from work tell your wife
You're at the titty bars

It's not what ya did,
It's not what ya didn't
God gave her a perfect body
and now I'm all up in it.

It's not she's a tramp.
It's not she's not pure.
She just likes getting her fuck on,
and its good one of that i'm sure

I can't lie I have to tell the truth
My commandments says I'm a total spoof
Your daughter's a freak
Your daughter's a pro
When i'm done with her
She'll do one of your bros

I hope I'll never have a daughter
I hope I'll never have a daughter
I hope I'll never have a daughter
I hope I'll never have a daughter

Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana naaaaaaaa!

SUZANNE!! By Weezer

Suzanne, you're all that I wanted of a girl
You're all that I need in the world
I'm your child
Make me blush
Drive me wild
Suzanne, you're all that I wanted

When I met you I was all alone
Cold and hungry cryin' on the phone
You baked me brownies and said "don't you cry"
And gave me the coat off your back

Suzanne, you're all that I wanted of a girl
You're all that I need in the world
I'm your child
Make me blush
Drive me wild
Suzanne, you're all that I wanted

Even Izzy, Slash and Axl Rose
When I call you put 'em all on hold
And say to me that you'd do anything
And all I can do is say that
I haven't much I can give you in return
Only my heart and a promise not to turn
But I'll sing to you every day and every night
Suzanne, I'm your man...

Suzanne, you're all that I wanted of a girl
You're all that I need in the world
I'm your child
Make me blush
Drive me wild
Suzanne, you're all that I wanted
Of a girl

"I'm With You"...Avril Lavigne

I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

im looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythigns a mess
and no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
 
 
oh why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...



Donna Lewis - "I Love you Always and Forever"

(Verse 1)
Feels like I'm standing in a timeless dream
Of light mists, of pale amber rose
Feels like I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent
Touching, discovering you

(Verse 2)
Those days of warm rain come rushing back to me
Miles of windless summer nights
Secret moments shared within the heat of the afternoon
Out of the stilness, soft spoken words
(Say it, say it again)

(Chorus)
I love you always forever
Near or far, closer together
Everywhere I will be with you
Everything I will do for you

(Chorus)

You've got the most unbelievable blue eyes I've ever seen
You've got me almost melting away
As we lay there
Under a blue sky with pure white stars
Exotic sweetness, a magical time
(Say it, say it again)

(Chorus 2x)

(Bridge)
Say you'll love and love me forever
Never stop, never whatever
Near and far and always Everywhere and every(thing)

(Bridge 3x)

(Chorus to fade)




MAYBE I'M AMAZED
By Paul McCartney
 
 
BABY, I'M AMAZED AT THE WAY YOU LOVE ME ALL THE TIME,
AND MAYBE I'M AFRAID OF THE WAY I LOVE YOU.
 
MAYBE I'M AMAZED AT THE WAY YOU PULLED ME OUT OF TIME,
YOU HUNG ME ON THE LINE.
MAYBE I'M AMAZED AT THE WAY I REALLY NEED YOU.
 
BABY, I'M A GIRL, MAYBE I'M A LONELY GIRL
WHO'S IN THE MIDDLE OF SOMETHING
THAT SHE DOESN'T REALLY UNDERSTAND.
 
BABY, I'M A GIRL,
AND MAYBE YOU'RE THE ONLY MAN WHO COULD EVER HELP ME.
BABY, WON'T YOU HELP ME TO UNDERSTAND?
OO-OO-OO-OO-OO-OO.
  
BABY, I'M A GIRL, MAYBE I'M A LONELY GIRL
WHO'S IN THE MIDDLE OF SOMETHING
THAT SHE DOESN'T REALLY UNDERSTAND.
 
BABY, I'M A GIRL,
AND MAYBE YOU'RE THE ONLY MAN WHO COULD EVER HELP ME.
BABY, WON'T YOU HELP ME TO UNDERSTAND?
OO-OO-OO-OO-OO-OO.
 
MAYBE I'M AMAZED AT THE WAY YOU'RE WITH ME ALL THE TIME,
MAYBE I'M AFRAID OF THE WAY I'LL LEAVE YOU.
 
MAYBE I'M AMAZED AT THE WAY YOU HELP ME SING MY SONG,
RIGHT ME WHEN I'M WRONG-
MAYBE I'M AMAZED AT THE WAY I REALLY NEED YOU.
 

Rocco....you'll be loved and missed forever

Tears In Heaven

by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

 

"Godspeed (Sweet Dreams)" by the Dixie Chicks

Dragon tales and the "water is wide"
Pirate's sail and lost boys fly
Fish bite moonbeams every night
And I love you

Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams

The rocket racer's all tuckered out
Superman's in pajamas on the couch
Goodnight moon, we'll find the mouse
And I love you

Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams

God bless mommy and match box cars
God bless dad and thanks for the stars
God hears "Amen," wherever we are
And I love you

Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Godspeed
Godspeed
Sweet dreams

 

LOS LONELY BOYS LYRICS

"Heaven"

Save me from this prison
Lord help me get away
Cause only you can save me now
From this misery
Cause I've been lost in my own place
And I'm getting' weary
How far is heaven
And I know I need to change
My ways of livin'
How far is heaven, Lord can you tell me
Cause I've been locked up way too long
In this crazy world, how far is heaven
I just keep on prayin' Lord
Just keep on livin', how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven
I just got to know how far, how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me
[translated from Spanish]
(You that's in a higher place
Send me down a blessing)
Cause I know there's a better place
Than this place I'm livin', how far is heaven
And I just got to have some faith
And just keep on giving, how far is heaven
I just wanna know how far

 

RASCAL FLATTS LYRICS

"When The Sand Runs Out"

I spent the morning at an old friend's grave
Flowers and Amazing Grace, he was a good man
He spent his whole life spinnin' his wheels
Never knowin' how the real thing feels
He never took a chance or took the time to dance
And I stood there thinking as I said goodbye
Today is the first day of the rest of my life

I'm gonna stop lookin' back and start movin' on
And learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here

Go out on a ledge, with out any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah I wanna be runnin'
When the sand runs out

'Cause people do it everyday
Promise themselves they're gonna change
I've been there, but I'm changin' from the inside out

That was then and this is now
I'm a new man, yeah, I'm a brand new man
And when they carve my stone they'll write these words
"Here lies a man who lived life for all that its worth"

I'm gonna stop lookin' back and start movin' on
Learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here

Go out on a ledge, with out any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah I wanna be runnin'
When the sand runs out